The Jinx

Have you seen this? 


If you haven’t you can watch it on HBONow for free for a month.  I loaded the App on my iPad and yesterday which was not a productive day anyway, so I ended up binge watching this series. 

There are other great things on HBONow that I plan to watch within the next month.   I plan to cancel it before the month is up! 

FREE Entertainment!

This show is crazy, it sucked me in.   Durst is completely insane.  You will not believe what this guy got away with.  Literally, murder. 

But what got me was the way the writer / director did the interviews.  Really clever.

The Jinx New York Premire TRTGMxRtLhel

Andrew Jareki also wrote and directed this film that portrayed part of Durst life.  I have not seen it yet, but it’s on Netflix.  He’s accused of murdering his first wife, whom has never been found.  So sad. 


I plan to watch it soon.

Here is the director and Durst in NYC.


This guy gives me the creeps. 


You will not believe this story.  Don’t let the opening scene in Galveston throw you off, it’s a very gross opener.   Its never that gory again, but it is very disturbing. 

What a way to spend a Sunday.

Hope you are off to a good week!  Don’t forget to go get HBONow for free!


I Suck

What a title!

Today it applies to volunteering and handling the stress of my daughters bad golf days.

Let’s start with the volunteering part.  I don’t usually volunteer when I feel lousy, but I felt pretty good this weekend.  (Until all this happened!)


It was so cold and windy and they put me up on a hill where I had to spot so I had to move around a lot, which made it impossible to keep my umbrella up as a wind blocker.

I can’t afford to get sick, so I have to be really careful!


I radioed in that they needed to switch me to a different position but he just let me go for the day.


I found my kid on the course and let her know I’d be back.  She’s fine with me not being there.  When I volunteer I never see her except when she passes through my area, so that’s not a big deal, I just didn’t want to be gone and her not be aware.

So anyway… off I went and on the way home I stopped at the 99 cent store and picked up $27.00 worth of paper and canned goods.   I needed a refrigerator bulb.

I didn’t buy any food that needed refrigeration because that was turned off!  More on that in a minute. No STRESS here.

On the way I also stopped at the thrift store and picked up a couple of tops and a candle.  One top and the candle are brand new!


I didn’t pay that price.


I really like longer sleeves these days.  After 50 don’t wear short sleeves!


This is what I paid.


That’s more like it.

Okay, now lets get to the “I Suck” part.  My kid texted me toward the end of the day that she had four “blow up” holes.  That means really bad!  Well, it happens.  I get it.  But what comes next…. is not pretty.  Look away!

So I go get her and she climbs in the car…”Well, mom, I birdied that last whole to save 100”.

100.  Are you serious?  One Hundred???

My kid has been shooting in the 80s during practice rounds.  During tournaments her scores are the worst, but 100 is unacceptable!  I about burst a blood vessel.

And here again is the really I SUCK ugly part.  I went on a rant.  “That’s it, we are done, I cannot believe you are shooting scores like this, this cost me so much money, are you not taking this seriously, we are done, its over, no more golf, you suck, your friends suck, this sucks.” etc.  It was ugly.  There were some F bombs included.  Yep, occasionally I am not a quality person.

In reality, I suck.  She is just a kid.  She makes mistakes but its not completely her fault.  She doesn’t deserve me to whip out the Ginzu knives and rip her to shreds.  I just get so frustrated with all the money that goes towards it.  I know there is more on the line here than just a round of golf.  Its her future, possible scholarships and that is what freaks me out.

The money.  Cause I don’t have any.  If I had money, I would probably be a really nice and chill mom. “Oh that is okay dear, no worries, we will just get you more lessons and  buy a better set of clubs.  No big deal honey, would you rather take up horseback riding or oil painting, fashion design?  Lets go to  the mall!

What a day!  The golf game, the vent and the refrigerator.  Oh the refrigerator.

So in the morning as we are leaving to go to the course, my kid pulls out a ice bottle from the freezer for her lunch.  There has been a broken bulb in there for a long time, but it sparked and that freaked us out. The fridge went off.  I turned off the breaker and we plugged it in another socket and it came back on.  For about a second.  Then it sparked and did it again.  The fridge went off.  I had no time to figure it out.

I kept thinking CRAP I’m probably going to have to call someone on a Saturday, its gonna cost me a fortune or I am gonna have to buy a new fridge. OMG!  That was a nice way to start the day.

When I got home I realized the old bulb is probably shorting it out.  I turned off the breakers and carefully pulled out the old broken bulb and turned it back on and it quit shorting out. Fixed.  No expensive repair guy needed thankfully!

Yesterday was not my best day.  Not proud of myself or my reaction.  I am not a good golf mom.  I fear I am really screwing up in more ways than just golf.  I apologized to my kid, let her know that some of the things I said I meant, but my delivery was unacceptable and we had a long talk.

I never had the opportunity that she has, and she doesn’t have much, so you can imagine what my life was like.  I explained to her that it hurts me and frustrates me that I feel like she is not taking advantage of what little I can give and the things I am trying to do for her.  She gets it I think.

This is gonna be something I work on with my shrink.  In the meantime… you guys get to hear it

Today, I get to stay home and feel like the schmuck that I am.  Her dad can go with her today and no matter what how she does today I have got to learn to keep my Ginzu knives to myself!

Hope your weekend is better than mine!


Beauty Basics


I, for one am into drugstore products.  Yep!  Proudly.  I used to be into department store beauty products and look where it got me!

In Chapter 13!

Today I want to show you a couple of products that I use and can say that I’m so glad I found.

Let me start with this:


I love this because number one, it costs less than ten bucks and lasts me months.

It has sunscreen and is non-greasy.  I read some really good reviews online a year or so ago and I haven’t bought anything different since.  It has to say COMPLETE when you buy it though.




You know, a long time ago, in a land far far away, I used to be hooked on Este Lauder lipsticks as well as Lancôme.  As a matter of fact, all my makeup and skin care came from the department store.  Wow!

The lipsticks weren’t even long lasting!  How much time did I spend reapplying?  Too much money  and a waste of time.

I wised up  and now I use this:


It last for hours!  I love it.

I actually just found the wand kind recently, because I always use this kind:


The last time I hit up the drugstore I could not find that.

I think they replaced the packaging with this which I actually like better, just one applicator!  Perfect.


Like, I really don’t care how you package it, as long as the color is right, it lasts for hours and the price is right!  That’s all I care about these days.

Remember way back, I showed you this SUPER CHEAP FACE CLEANSER?  Yep, still using it.  My kid uses it too and as much makeup as she wears, like a tube of mascara a month, I would be spending way too much on cleanser if I didn’t buy the 99cent store crap!  But it works fine!  Really, it is just as good as Ponds.  I am laughing that I said as good as Ponds.  Like Ponds is the best nowadays to me!  Haha!!!

Can I just say that I’m glad that my kid doesn’t have to go to the department store for her makeup…Yet!

Oh I’m sure she will eventually but by that time, she can pay for it herself.

I am never going back to the department store again for makeup.  Like ever, many more things in life are way more important to me these days.

As a matter of fact, I can’t remember the last time I stepped foot in a department store, or bought anything new.

Oh wait, the last time I bought something new for me in a “real store” and not a “thrift store”, was when we went to Oregon.  Remember this?  So now even Old Navy is fancy.  Times

Times sure do change when you are in a Chapter 13!

So there you have it, two of my favorite drugstore products.    Try them!  I think you will agree, they are a smart choice.

Speaking of smart I haven’t spend a cent this week!  Being such a smart girl!



Yes, its dry here in So. Cal! I am sure you have heard!

(Although we are supposed to get a sprinkle today)!


Instead of So Cal we will call it So Dry!  Ha!

That doesn’t stop me from hitting the trail at work on my break.


I know.  I am so lucky to have this space.  I wish I had horses!  Would be so fun.


Look how brown!


So Brown!


So Dry.  But so free!  Grab your hiking boots and go…

I love that is its free.  This week I walked every single day!  There were days when I didn’t feel like it but I did anyway and it really helped me get thru the rest of the day!

I love this space, dry or not!  Brown or not.

Hope all is well with you!


So Sweet

Last week, after my daughter had her wisdom teeth AND her dads motorcycle accident she was feeling pretty low.

You can imagine her joy when she found these on the patio!


Seriously, it was the sweetest thing ever.


And a card.




What a thoughtful young man!

And so it begins… My daughter growing up so fast.  Flowers!  Wow.  16 years old next month.  I am beyond.

Speaking of beyond… I am beyond my budget this month, so many bills it seems.   Extras too, necessary and unnecessary.  It has caught up with me as it sometimes does and so we are feeling the pinch. 

Golf tourney this weekend, and that is paid for so at least I don’t have to worry about that.  To stretch things I will probably try to be creative in the kitchen with ingredients I have on hand.  Simple and basic.

Ah… how fun it is to live so close to the wire!  ;-)


Original Sunflower Art

Remember way back in October when I took my daughter to the pumpkin patch and I took this picture of these beautiful sunflowers?


I told her then it would be so great if she could paint it for me.  She agreed.

By the way, that was the last time  that I will get her to the pumpkin patch, at least without a friend!  You know how teens are right?

Well… she might not be painting that particular picture of sunflowers but she found another one that inspired her online and she is painting it for me now.

She just started!


I have not seen the “inspiration piece” but I’m so happy and excited.   Isn’t it pretty?

She keeps telling me… “MOM, its gonna take time, calm down!”

I can’t calm down.  I have the perfect blank spot for it in the living room!  And… she is doing art!

It will be my treasure forever!


Like she said, it will take a while to finish and I have no idea what the original looks like, all I know is that my kid is painting and it is so great to see her in the zone!

I think the art is in the making of the art!

You know I am completely aware how fleeting this moment is with her, she will be out and doing her own thing before I can say Sunflower!

I’m trying to stay connected with her.  I found a yoga class that she wants to try and it’s pretty cheap at a community center.  We are going to give that a try, something to do together before she completely blows me off and heads off into her own life.

I can’t wait to show you the painting when when its done, hopefully by Mothers Day that would be perfect.

BTW, nothing in the mail box from Chase yesterday!  ;-)


Good Things

Good morning!  I mentioned yesterday that I have some BK news.  This is good news, kind of.  Potentially!

A couple of days ago, I got a letter from Chase, one of my creditors that filed a claim.  They sent this letter/notice to the Bankruptcy court, me and my attorney.


At first when I opened it, I thought, OMGosh, this can’t be good, but as I read it, I was surprised and… confused.


Basically, Chase has forgiven the whole loan to the tune of $8000.00!  I know.  Why would they do that while they are guaranteed payment thru the trustee? 

As it turns out, they were given a bail out and must use that soon or lose it and part of that is giving homeowners some relief.   If I wasn’t in a BK I would probably not have gotten this letter though. They are sending out this relief to people in distress.  I guess that makes sense.

But here is the kicker.  Now…the trustee just takes what she was sending to them and disburses it to the other debts that filed a claim.  One of the other creditors is Chase for my second! 

Here is where the potential good news comes in.  I mean, I’m not holding my breath, but it would be so so so awesome!  I would die!

IF and this is a huge IF…. IF Chase sends me a letter/notice like this one for my second lien then all my liens on the condo would be gone. 

The reason I’m doing a Chapter 13 is for the lien strip of those loans.  If there are no longer any liens then I could convert to a Chapter 7 and be done early.  I mean, that is probably not going to happen, things like that just don’t happen for me!  I have never had a ship come in yet!

Its nice to dream and I RACED to the mailbox yesterday after work to see.  I know that I will be holding my breath every time I go to the mail box now… for sure!

If something…. and here I go again dreaming… IF that were to happen and my credit score continues to rise:


I would finally be sitting pretty!  We could sell the condo and move on with our lives!  Find a nice two bedroom/two bath someplace and just continue to live frugally and life would be good.

A Debtgirl can dream!  OH dare to dream!

Have a great day!