Rant. Fair Warning!
I’m in the middle of a Chapter 13 BK. I’m 54 years old.
I have Chronic illness that never gets me down because I don’t let it, but it is there, so basically, uninsurable and I could not pass a job physical if they ask me questions.
I have a 15 year old daughter with lots of costly things going on to set her up for her future, golf and school mainly. A car coming up soon as well.
I have a pretty good pension when I retire from the job I have. I hope in 9 years!
I piss and moan about getting passed over for promotions, etc. But doesn’t every body?
I got a boss that sits at his desk (has done this for at least 5 years that I am aware) of and plays World of Warcraft all day long. Even when you talk to him sometimes he has one eye on the monitor and clicks away at his mouse and keyboard! Hilarious really. He can’t even stop himself long enough to have a conversation. Pathetic.
I have helped him so many times, saved his ass…those days are over. People have asked me if he is gaming and I have said, I don’t think so. I lied.
He is giving his “buddy” here at work a promo, yep, they play together, I’ve seen it. I also have proof, but it wouldn’t hold up. But I had to be sure for myself. Really.
It makes me sad that I have to say to myself, well, I have a job. At least I have a job, I should be grateful, blah blah blah.
That is not the kind of life I have worked hard for and not the kind of just getting thru the day career I expected.
But there it is.
We are all just freaking drones and does work really matter? Not really. Not at this stage of the game. Not for most of us.
At least I am interested in what I do. Its too bad I am not a dude here or I would at least be given more money.
I’m not the friendliest person at work, but that should not be a punitive action. I’m polite, I just don’t get involved because much like middle school, I have watched them all at one point or other stab each other in the back. I have a couple of people that I have let get close, but other than that, I am a loner. I try to get close, then I get bitten then I back up again. Confuses me.
My boss is a prime example of that. Now I don’t trust him and I really need to keep my distance. I have done too much for him.
It’s cool. Here is my new perspective. I have a job, I like the work. I will nod and smile in all the right places and keep my head down and do my job. No more, no less.
Would you even try to get a new job at my age? That just seems insane and completely out of the question to me.
Jobs are hard to come by and especially at my age!
I will get past this, its just a freaking job and at 5:00 it is history until 7:30 tomorrow.